Today!

 Yes, today is what matters. What you do, how you show up, how you make someone feel, how you react, and most importantly, how you manage yourself. 

I have realised I cannot influence people much, change their thots or the way they react to situations. I tried explaining things to make it better and miserably failed and ended up making it worse for all. But I wont give up, it is not me.

But in all these conversations, I am losing sleep, sanity and screwing up my today.

All I can do is manage myself and live today properly. I am enough to myself and I can be content with myself. If I am happy with myself, I will have the will to continue working on the situations and not get beaten down when they don't get better and just give up on them.

I want to go to sleep feeling good about the day or at least ok than feeling like shit. So yes, cheers to living today, one day at a time! 

How dono, but ill figure it out, having a clear goal is half way there :)