Today!

 Yes, today is what matters. What you do, how you show up, how you make someone feel, how you react, and most importantly, how you manage yourself. 

I have realised I cannot influence people much, change their thots or the way they react to situations. I tried explaining things to make it better and miserably failed and ended up making it worse for all. But I wont give up, it is not me.

But in all these conversations, I am losing sleep, sanity and screwing up my today.

All I can do is manage myself and live today properly. I am enough to myself and I can be content with myself. If I am happy with myself, I will have the will to continue working on the situations and not get beaten down when they don't get better and just give up on them.

I want to go to sleep feeling good about the day or at least ok than feeling like shit. So yes, cheers to living today, one day at a time! 

How dono, but ill figure it out, having a clear goal is half way there :)  

Individual!

 The worst thing that can happen to you in crisis is when everyone thinks it is the only thing that matters. You don't have a life other than thinking about the situation and all the conversations are about that and only that.

You as a person have been forgotten. The reason you want to talk to others is not to discuss the shit that is running in your head but actually to get a break from it. Instead, all you get reminded of is the crisis and that is the only thing needing focus on, you just realize how irrelevant you as a person are. 

Please, do me a favor, for once think I am an individual first, the one who needs care, attention, conversation, etc. Im not defined by my crisis, my problems, my issues, I can manage it, I might fail, repeat mistakes, make it worse or better, but I can manage it. 

If you cant see me as an individual and treat me normally, and the only thing you have to talk about is the crisis, then realize that it is not care!

Friends not just give ideas to help with the crisis, they try to divert, rejuvenate and make you relax and laugh even if it is laughing at yourself or the situation.