I want to find my Zihuatanejo. A place where I can find peace and a way to live life while waiting for my friend to come to me. I want to be content, happy in solitude, continue to send good energy and work on myself to be worthy of love and care :)
It might take few days or few decades. I just want to wait patiently with 'arms wide open' and manage my sabotaging thoughts. I know it will happen, I visualize this happening daily, I manifest for it, hopefully soon :)
Now that I have a goals and a strong reason to stick to it, I feel I will be able to. For the non-believers/doubters (including me at times), who would have thought i could restrain myself from chocolates, sweets, desserts, etc. I have surprised myself in the last 3-4 weeks with how committed I am to this process and I am confident of sticking to this resolution. The sweetness that follows with the return will be so good, that sweets/chocolates is nothing.
I think I have found a formula to keep going by tying it to something really important to me. Hopefully it is my move from 'I will see what happens' to 'I will take care of what happens', i;e nodona to nodkolona :)
And worst case it never happens (i genuinely think I have not lost permanently), I would have not built bitterness, made peace with the wait (hopefully done things to feel the wait is fun) and sent good vibes forever!
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