I have been thinking of writing something for a few days but could not get my thoughts together. I came up with what I wanted to write about today but was still skeptical if I should write or not and then saw this pic. It felt like a sign and here I am scribbling away.
But there is one thing that actually overturns all of these excellent qualities, my perseverance. Yes, when I feel something is right, I do not give up easily. Especially when I keep my ego aside, there is no way to get rid of me. I am like that hungry dog who keeps his eye on the goal and does not move no matter what. And thanks to this one quality, I have built patience where needed.
Particularly now, I have a strong instinct that things will get better, I know I will have my soul back, it is just a matter of time. And this is not the crazy me talking but the practical me who knows how things have been for the last 3 yrs and despite everything, we have managed to get through. I have to confidence that the truth will be seen and I will be spared of this punishment and ill get what I have dreamt of and fought for.
I can give nonstop explanations and justify actions, but it cannot wipe of the hurt that has caused. The only thing that has to be believed is my intentions and what I was trying to do. I have forgotten, ignored, taken things for granted and been horrible with words. There is no escape from that. While I did all that, I have stuck around, shown care, love and tried to told the respect. Irrespective, the pain is true and I will work hard to be more aware and ensure it is not repeated. I am capable of learning and improving, changing, especially when there is so much at stake. I will prove it as it matters the most to me.
I am here to put it in writing that I will show insane patience and make sure there is enough time given for things to be fixed. I might show some restlessness but I will wait for it. Even if it takes decades, I will wait. Not coz I cant let go but coz it is worth giving up my life for 🤗
I just hope not much time is lost in this process. Life is unpredictable and given today's lifestyle, anything can happen. So much uncertainty in life, like a friend's wife in US diagnosed with breast cancer, a friend's friend passing away with a heart attack, accidents, work situations, travel, etc, we never know what is in store for us tomorrow. All we have is today to enjoy life.
I just hope things get sorted today. If not I will wait for tomorrow, everyday 🤗
As they say, patience is the solution for everything ❤️
