What I did not realize is how frustrating it is to wait for some communication and feedback. They must have gone mad sitting there waiting for me to tell them how things are going on, am I doing well, or do I need help? The worst is me being normal most times roaming around, traveling, partying which makes people think I'm completely fine and they are forgotten.
I wish I could say what I am thinking and how I feel to the world without fearing a backlash or being judged. One thing I have realized is the importance I give to the good boy image I have always maintained, not sure for what reason and I don't know how to get out of it. The best thing is most of them know how I am and don't care about the pretense. Somehow I have to break out of it.
The truth will set you free. But first will piss you off!
Not being able to think from other perspectives has been a flaw that is making things worse. Have to work it out, probably being honest will help. Instead of defending my actions, I have to think from another perspective and correct my actions. Easier said than done!! Until then, I would say to my loved ones to hang in there 😬
